I really do not want to talk about the first time I had sex. I would like to talk about how I felt when I did have sex. Was it making love? Or just sex? Okay I have two experiences so two relationships 😗 my first was when I was 18 years old we was friends at first. He was just so oh my wow, wow he touched me so gentle and sweet , he held me just the way I wanted to be held. He was perfect in every way his only down fall, he liked sex in the you know. Eventually , I got use to it after some years and, from him that was making love but, for me it was sex. After our eight year break up I told him ” “stop messin wit me😲.”
My second love encounter was a long lost friend we know each other for more than 11 years, and we never had sex. I only wanted to be with him not have sex, years later we end up meeting again because , prior to we had lost contact . When I seen him I did not know who he was because in my age years of 24-29 I had short term memory loss. And majority of the people I know today I will not remember, when he walked up to me the thought in my mind was ” who is this amazing man walking towards me? What the why is he hugging me? Do I know you? I asked him, and when he smiled I remembered exactly who he was. Do any of you believe in love at first sight? Moment I set my eyes on him my heart felt passions , feelings I thought I felt before but, I realized that I never felt like that, i…I gotta get his number he even knew that I was procrastinating on asking him. ” he’s the one for me it got to be him I said to my self , he seems loving I said to myself , I wonder if he would love me again? Regardless, of me not looking the same I asked myself . Well, we made love for the first time out of the 11 years we known each other, I felt ashamed because , he said to me ” silver, after 2 years we met I wanted to marry you, you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.. he kissed me, rubbed me, so tight, and close I was under his spell, and their was nothing g I could do. Not even cry which that is what I am good at, instead when I walked away my stupid self walked to the corner of the bedroom so he had me cornered, and I had know choice but, to say I’m yours.👑 and, I want you to make love to me. I told him that but, instead he wanted the I’m yours desert. He was amazing way to deep but, he is the best I have ever had. He did not hold me he put it down. I never understood that until I was with him. And, I love him for that. Know do not get me wrong about this situation I am upset and, that was like 4 years ago and it felt like it happen last night. To me in my opinion he made love to me. He cared ( pass tense ) about me. But, the following time I understood why he did not hold me. Because, we are not married and, as stupid as this sounds I pray that God will send me someone like him. If not I would not understand why . So, what do you think? Was that making love, or just sex?